wisdom…

Happy is the person who finds wisdom and gains understanding. For the profit of wisdom is better than silver, and her wages are better than gold. Wisdom is more precious than rubies; nothing you desire can compete with her. She offers you life in her right hand, and riches and honor in her left. She will guide you down delightful paths; all her ways are satisfying. Wisdom is a tree of life to those who embrace her; happy are those who hold her tightly.
— Proverbs 3:13-18

Wisdom has the power to transform those who apprehend it. Wisdom could be defined as the intimate embrace of truth, when the truth merges with our being and begins to drive and direct our actions. I have learned through reading Fight Like a Girl, by Lisa Bevere, that in order to obtain wisdom and embrace life, I must let go of those things that hinder me and release things that poison and frustrate my life. These things include: bitterness, unforgiveness, anger, pain, fear, jealousy, hatred, turmoil, and the past.

If I am to be a wise woman, I must hold on to the promises of God, His faithfulness, His character, His love, His forgiveness, and His plans for my future. I must let go of life’s disappointments and realize that I will never win with bitterness and offense as my companions. Ultimately, it comes down to me exchanging everything in this life that frustrates me for release. Sweet release! I must release what is in my hand so that He can release what is in His.

On another note…

A strange thing is happening, or maybe I miss the mark by calling is a strange thing—but I feel my heart is turning towards the Jr. High kids. As I continually think on this very thought, I cannot help but think back to when I was in Jr. High. Oddly enough, my Jr. High years were the years when I first met Jesus Christ. I remember going to Camp Hammer with girls that I thought were my friends and by the end of camp, ultimately went back home knowing that Jesus was the Ultimate Friend. I clearly remember my camp counselor and how she shared about her faith and was not afraid to tell us about her life. Her name escapes me, but I do remember her telling me that she made the decision to stay pure until marriage. She told us that she had never been in a relationship before, but that she was waiting on Gods best. She challenged me to be better. She challenged me to get to know God on a deeply intimate and personal level. My counselor not only shared her faith in Jesus with us, but she took interest in getting to know us and hang out with us. She was everything that I didn’t have growing up. She was a mentor and wasn’t that much older than I (although at the time I was 13-14 years old and she was 21-22 years old). She was everything that I wanted to be, and wasn’t so detached from us that she was untouchable. She was cool. Even though she was many years our senior, she never got annoyed with us and our childish ways—it seemed as though she could remember being our age and urged us to be ourselves—within reason.

I don’t know why I am feeling this way, but it is a pleasant and refreshing surprise that the Lord is working in me this way. I can solely contribute these feelings to the Lord and look forward to exploring exactly what all of this means. With that being said, I know that I am going to be in charge of running the Meadow Ranch Jr. High Camp for the girls at Hume Lake. To be completely honest, I was pissed off that I was not going to be a leader at the Ponderosa High School Camp—and for several reasons. I wasn’t going to be a cabin leader with the girls that are in my cell group, I wasn’t going to be able to be with my friends at camp, I wasn’t going to be able to play “kanjavi can-can”, I was going to be with girls that were significantly younger than I and was going to have to deal with their immaturity and childishness. How selfish and self seeking was I in thinking these things? How selfish and low was I to think that this task that the Lord has placed before me was not important enough? How selfish was I in thinking that I was at camp for myself and not for the young people? How selfish and how embarrassing that I even thought these thoughts and entertained these ideas in my head?

Looking back I see that the Lord had a different plan for me all along and I now embrace these plans with fervor and great expectation. There is a joy unspeakable within me that I cannot get out. There is a fire in my bones that brings me to tears—because I know it is of the Lord. I do not know what this summer has in store for me, but all I can say is “YES” to His will. I trust in His plan so much that I am both honored and amazed that He would place such a responsibility upon me—to hang out and be myself with these girls…to show them that it is possible to live a righteous, sanctified and saved life and still have that “cool” factor.

Some people may just call Hume Lake a summer camp, but now having a fresh perspective and insight into the Lords’ plan for the coming months, I can call it an opportunity to impact and affect young people’s lives for the better. If I can reach them before they get to High School and equip them to withstand the attack of the enemy that is so strong against the youth today, I can give them the hope of a better future and lead them onto the path of righteousness—one that leads them in surety on a firm foundation and ultimately the one that leads them to follow Jesus Christ as their Lord and Savior.

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~ by visionaryvanguard on Thursday, 2006 June 1.

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